Moving Past The Uncomfortable
There are times in everyone’s life where we feel a little lost, confused, abandoned, alone. We have all been there at least once in our lives, even for a short moment. How you respond to the emotion is of upmost importance as I believe that is what allows us as human beings to evolve and move forward in life.
Whether you’ve lost your job, a loved one, or took a hard loss with your team — the fact of the matter is that feeling lost is okay. It’s what you do after that makes the difference.
As I write this blog post I am going through a bit of feeling lost. There are so many ventures I have attempted since leaving the corp realm of job security last September, some of proven quite fruitful and others were hard learning experiences. What I chose to do after the fact was critical in my own ability to overcome and continue on.
Always finding myself employed and with opportunity to grow in my past career, being on your own is completely different. At least once a day I doubt myself, not necessarily with my ability or skill but with how I will be able to provide a simple living for myself.
In this moment I believe two things will keep me going:
#1 — Being stubborn with my dream
#2 — Not wanting to go back to live another person’s dream
I remind myself time and time again of what my life was like before and I cringe at going back. It wasn’t the companies I worked for or the industries. No it wasn’t frustration at org chart disfunction or lack of transparency, it was awakening to the fact that I need to do what is right in my heart no matter how hard it is or however long it takes.
I spent the past 7 years of life growing into a career in Information Technology — yearly budget reviews, disaster recovery schemes, software licensing woes, customer satisfaction priority, merger and acquisition involvement and a host of other systems and management tasks. I thought that was the life I wanted, but little did I know there is a big difference between making a living and making a life.
Along the way I spent time educating and receiving certification through teaching Yoga, Holistic Lifestyle Coaching and becoming a certified powerlifting coach. All which culminate into a big paraphrase of who I am. Since then I have started two YouTube channels, maintaining 4 individually branded websites, content strategy and creative deployment through Instagram, Facebook, Twitter and Snapchat.
I don’t have a success record, heck I don’t even have a track record. All I have is intuition, self-awareness, work ethic and love.
For the longest time i’ve always been one who was attempting to control everything. To rewrite my story each and every. I no longer am trying to control what I can’t change, rather I do what I can each and everyday while infused with drive and determination to make it happen for me, my family, friends and my girlfriend.
They are the ones who support me and keep me going when I doubt myself. It’s certainly not easy leaving comfort and security for looking at the monthly check balance and taking a deep hard look at myself.
I could go back to the corporate realm and return to steady income and equity, but a huge part of me is telling me to never go back.
You’ve had a taste of that for years, don’t torture heart
To me, i’d rather be poor and make ends meet for a few years in order to manifest my dream than to quit on myself. Quitting on my dream and me would be the biggest regret of my life and i’m not willing or able to wait until i’m 75 to have regretted the last 30–40 years of my life.
For anyone reading this, it’s not a call to action. It’s only what you make of it. That is what I represent in a nutshell.
To create experiences and provide you with insight and perspective.
Keep creating, keep aspiring, keep working
I hope you enjoyed reading this rant, philosophical expression, psycho-something or other post!
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Thanks a bunch and follow me around on my journey as a Powerlifter, Yoga Teacher, Holistic Lifestyle Coach and Techie.